Deep Water Days

I’ve been in the hospital for three days now, and probably have at least two more to go. They will let me go home when my blood tests show that my white blood cells are multiplying fast enough. I am here because the colitis that developed as a result of chemotherapy...

July 28, 2024 We’re often reminded that there are no stupid questions. but I get asked one every single day at the cancer clinic that I think defies that logic. They ask me every single morning whether I’ve travelled out of the country in the last day. One day, I’m...

I recently read Viktor Frankl’s “Man’s Search For Meaning”. Frankl’s core message is that humans can make it through just about anything if they can hold a vision of the future in their mind  It’s been 5 months since I was told I have Multiple Myeloma, a cancer...

The first big trip Bill and I went on as a couple was to the Cayman Islands. It was a romantic island vacation, and we finally got the honeymoon we had skipped 15 years earlier. One of the things we did there was to take a boat with a bunch of other tourists to...

We celebrated our mothers yesterday, and I have been thinking a lot about mine lately. My mom, Wanda died on May 11, 2023. That was 1 year and 2 days ago, and people have asked me if her one-year death day and Mother’s Day this year were hard for me. Definitely not. I...

My immune deficiency doctor asked me during our visit last week how I stay cheerful with so much uncertainty nipping at my heels constantly. It wasn’t a particularly good day, and I wasn’t feeling very cheerful, but it was an honest question, and I gave him my honest...

We all have them, but some people are better at managing distractions, instead of letting distractions manage them. It’s good weather in Missouri now, and all I want to do with my energy and time is to work in my garden. A note about the picture: I said this when I...

How do you tell someone that you’re having a bad day? And who do you choose to be honest with about why it’s so bad? I have thought often and long about this topic as I’ve passed through this past 4 months. You know how it goes; on any day, good or bad, a stranger or...

I didn’t have a very inspiring week. Actually, it was pretty uneventful, but a tough one. I learned-again- that even though the doctors know everything about my cancer, I know my actual body better than they do, and I should trust my own instincts when their advice...